So, seeing how I am still by the grace of the Almighty in the engineering school where I am, I have learned many theories, laws, and things of that nature that are "known" to be factual. The one that always bothered me the most is the physics law, the Law of the Conservation of Energy.
For those who don't know what it is, or cannot use the clues from the direct words of the law, it's basically that energy can neither be created nor destroyed. Seems simple right? But if you know about physics, you know a couple theoretical physicist have stretched this law to it's limit, as well, by questioning it. One guy named Albert Einstein did some crazy stuff with it, maybe you've heard of him... -Side note the theory of relativity is absolutely wild, and so is quantum theory; can't even begin to fathom stuff like that.
Back to the point, this theory always led me to have an infinite amount of questions.
**One more side note which is important to this post. I had a dear friend pass away this summer, and that is what really forced me to think about death seriously. She was just about to turn 21, had the world at her feet, and had the energy of 1,000 suns. Indirectly this post is a dedication to her, but you'll see how that happens at the end.**
I've always had a problem when thinking about death. As you can tell, my logic is twisted at times and from listening to what people tell you about afterlife there's no logical way anyone can comprehend just not existing. From what most people will tell you, if you don't die a horrific death and become a ghost/demon, you go to Happy Heaven or burn in hell. I've always had many questions about this concept, but I'll tackle that bully in a post later, for now let's just get back on topic.
So as I questioned this "not existing in the universe" fear, I thought about many things. For one, I watched the movie Immortals and had some crazy thoughts about a war in the after life. I also thought about many things which religious people will tell you. You know, your spirit going through the great gates of heaven into a party in paradise where we praise all day and feast with the great (enter a single religious belief group here) that have passed. [I completely disagree that only one group of religion gets into heaven as well but once again, that'll be in a later post] Ultimately, I found the first more appealing, but only through my logic.
I am a firm believer in the ways of the universe. If you are not, you might want to stop reading now. I only believe in the ways of the universe by applying this law of conservation of energy to everything. If you perform an action, you exert energy right? Even further, when you perform an action you have to think about the positives and negatives of that action. It's what people do, it's called having a conscience. If you do not have a conscience, you need more than religion to help you.
Back to the point, kind of not, but every thought, every voluntary action, every involuntary action that your body makes goes through the brain. If you don't know how the brain works -technically nobody does because it's the single most amazing thing ever, digress- you know you have roughly over 100 billion nerve cells called neurons which send some type of electrochemical impulses through your body. Now as stated in every post, I am not a neuroscientist and am no professional on the matter, but I'm pretty sure these electrical impulses amount to a shit load of energy.
No matter who you are, how "smart", how aware, whatever you think your status is, everyone's brain works the same. Some people have better sections of their brain than others, but at the end of the day they all work through these impulses. Every one has thoughts, can move their limbs for the most part, and things of the sort which require brain power.
Seeing how there's roughly 7 Billion people in the world, which increases quickly, I'm pretty sure it's safe to say that the energy only used to keep people alive is a significant amount.
Here's where my logic lead me.
If I think as much as I do, my brain must be throwing these electrochemical impulses out at some type of advanced rate right? But, see, the act of dying causes your brain to turn into a shut down factory. So where does the energy go? When I die, according to this "Law of the Universe" my thoughts are somewhere, because the energy that generates these thoughts can't just be destroyed. Even further, these thoughts, these energy impulses which lead me to think the way I do, have to be coming from somewhere, right? Who am I to create energy and go against this "Law of the Universe"?
So, this is what I came to believe after failing exams because of thinking so much about this and not sleeping for the better part of the months following my friend's funeral. When people die, it's not the end. That spirit that lives within you, that energy that you have -since it cannot be destroyed- it keeps going. And as a person, you receive the energy that you put into the universe.
I like to think of it as a big ass Karma bank, right? But there's some Almighty Power which is the teller and He's dealing energy with interest rates. So if you're working hard, exerting energy, on positive things then that energy of the people that have passed can be given to you. If you're spending your time exerting negative energy, well you get the hand you're dealt. You might receive some energy, but it'll be the energy of corrupt souls which will only bring more torment to your life. I think this is how these corrupt ass people have the energy to do all this devil's work but still at the end of the day are miserable. Likewise, I think this is how factory workers can work all day, everyday until they retire and be happy with the nothing that they've saved for retirement because they kept positive energy in them.
Whoever this teller is, this Almighty, He hears the prayers and sees the intent behind them. If someone is praying for strength and endurance to keep doing positive work, He'll send it. That's why most religions are supposed to tell you not to pray for material things and be focused on such worldly things, I digress. He is aware, and He has the power to distribute this energy, since it can't be destroyed (by the laws of the universe). And maybe this Almighty has a evil counterpart which deals out the negative energy, but whatever I'm sticking to this belief.
With this being said, I don't believe death is the end. And while I may not believe in the version of eternal life that everyone else might, I know the positive things that I strive to do on a daily basis will allow me to continue to grow into a successful person with the brain of a scholar, because that's what I'm putting into the universe.
On that note, I come to my final conclusion. Oeshae Morgan you were an amazing person during your time on this planet. The things you did, the people you affected, the life you lived were all just proof of the amazing energy you had. So while we have all grieved countless hours about what happened this summer, know that I believe that your spirit is still in this universe making someone better who will go on to change the world someday to the extent that you would have. I never said goodbye to you because I know someday our spirits will meet again to help the same person who needs that positive energy. I love you Mama Shae. May your spirit live on.
This post is dedicated to Oeshae Sierra Morgan
July 14, 1992-July 12,2013
Gone but never forgotten.
Everyone who is seriously interested in the pursuit of science becomes convinced that a spirit is manifest in the laws of the universe – a spirit vastly superior to man, and one in the face of which our modest powers must seem humble.
-Anonymous (believed to be Albert Einstein)
Just My Thoughts...
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