What's good family? Doubt anyone ever reads this anymore because I've been slacking so much on posting smh. But don't worry I have a new plan and I want everyone who reads this blog to be a part of this journey with me.
Background on this plan before I convey the whole thing to you.
So if you've read any of my posts, it is safe to assume that I am a few steps removed from the young Marcus that went to the Christian school and prayed multiple times a day to white Jesus. I've had my questions and my doubts about religion and everything and have been living in a more universal sense over the past couple of years (i.e. praying to the Creator and denouncing organized religion whenever I get the chance)
But something happened today that got my mind going. It's Easter Sunday, Resurrection Sunday, all that fun jazz right? And my friends are all deciding to go to church. I refrain, for the reasons stated above. Now, for some reason, I begin feeling guilty. Almost condemned to an extent. Why? No idea.
Then I come up with this thought. I've been denouncing religion but haven't found the reason why yet. I've just spent years with a radical ideology about the falseness of organized religion and how it is tearing the world apart, which at this point I still believe.
I could go on a whole rant about how church is crazy corrupt and how hypocritical the people who go there are and the dirtiest of people put on their nice clothes every Sunday to feel like the terrible actions that they commit the rest of the week are justified if they pray a couple times, BUT I will refrain and just tell you all my plan.
SOOOO when thinking about why I felt guilty and everything it clicked, I've been having all of these feelings about the church and I've just been sitting back and accepting it. I haven't explored deeply into the Bible and everything that the book contains. I haven't looked into other religions more than just at face value to see what separates them. I have just been sitting back letting time pass by. Disgusting.
So, the plan I came up with is to counteract this bitchassness that I've been allowing for myself over the past few years. What is it? Check it out.
There are 1,189 Chapters in the Holy Bible (shoutout Google for the answer). Break this down and it's just a little over 3 chapters to read each day in order to complete the book in a year. So my plan is, which I began today, to read 3 chapters a day. Through reading, I'll write down my questions, some I'll share on here some I'll just pocket for later, and I'll find different pastors to ask these questions to. Real answers only is what I'm looking for (if you know any knowledgable pastors leave some contact info below) and if by next Easter I decide that Christianity is what I decide to live my life by, then I dive in wholeheartedly.
Side note: If you're a Christian and you haven't done this I suggest you do it too. It's almost like reading the fine print on a deal that kind of deals with the fate of your soul for the rest of eternity. Digress.
Back to the plan. Like I said I'll read the whole Bible in this year's time before next Easter, and if I agree with everything and most/all of my questions have been answered then I'm all in. Back to the good God fearing Christian Marcus that accepts everything in the religion for what it is.
However, if I find things that don't sit right- like my assumption that the Bible tells the story of a certain type of people that do not share my lineage- then I plan on repeating this process with different religions until I find the one that does.
Islam, Buddism, Scientology, you name it, I'll do it. Worst case scenario I find out that I'm against all of them and just have a wealth of knowledge about all man made religion and finally know exactly why I'm against it. Best case scenario, I find the religion that the universe wanted me to find and I become fully absorbed until my mid-life crisis where something like this could happen again lol.
So family, there it is. My plan. The journey should be interesting and most likely hard to keep up with considering that I can barely remember to brush my teeth everyday let alone read these chapters and write fundamental questions, but I think it'll be more than rewarding.
With that being said, if you read this and you have any questions or comments about it let me know. Hit me up and we can discuss what I've found. It's time that we stop letting people tell us what to accept and we find out what's truly best for us.
As always, these are just my thoughts.
Marcus J.
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