For those who actually check my blog from time to time, you might be wondering why I haven't been posting recently.
Don't worry, I still have many thoughts that are more radical than the ones already posted, I just want them to be well thought up and developed before I post them so that I can say something that sticks in everyone's mind. Above that, I am doing more research on the topics I have been thinking about (autodidactism remember?) so this may take some time every now and again but please believe I have a lot more coming.
And what's coming well be nothing short of a prelude of what I believe will come in our lifetime.
Feel free to look through my older posts to prepare for the upcoming ones.
Always remember, these are just my thoughts.
-Marcus J.
Thursday, November 21, 2013
Tuesday, November 12, 2013
Self-Reflection on Memory Lane...
Ok, so today I was deep in my thoughts -arguably my feelings too lol- but I was literally getting a headache from thinking about things that are happening right now and felt like I was going insane. The main thing I was thinking about is how many things are about to change in my life in a matter of months, and by many I mean damn near everything.
Seeing how it is my fourth year in college, a lot of my colleagues will be graduating but due to my work/class schedule I will not. This makes me think of life, and everything that comes with it. How crazy it is that in a matter of seconds, minutes, hours, any amount of time your whole life can change permanently. Like that's actually crazy to think about, but I digress whatever.
So where did my thoughts lead me? To pictures and videos and posts and things of that sort to every social media outlet I've had since I was in middle school. From MySpace to FaceBook and all of that shit. Looking through pictures, thinking about the story that correlates with every one and the people who were in my life during those periods.
The joys and triumphs at every period and the people that were there with me to celebrate them, and also the hard times that I faced and the people who were there for me in my darkest moments.
And you want to know what I thought about? Where are these people now? All of these beautiful souls that helped me to get to where I am today, where are they? Of all the people that are in these pictures and these posts, shit even my top friends on MySpace (throwback right? haha) but where are they?
Then on top of that I began to think... Damn, do we not talk any more because of them or because of me? All of these "friends" that I had, why haven't I heard from any of them? My number's been the same since I was a freshman in high-school so it can't be me right? Wrong...
So from these thoughts I went into a period of self-reflection. Reflecting on all of the good times, all the bad times, all the people I've judged, all the people I wouldn't open up to, all the people I saw as just in my life for a season so I refused to put an effort into making a lasting relationship.
**Side note: one of my biggest fears is that I will end up alone in my final hour. Which of course is the way the world works, you're born alone and you die alone right? But the one thing that I do not want to do is die by myself. I think it has something to do with me being put in an incubator when I was born, but nobody knows those effects, I'm not sure of any studies on that lol. Anyways yeah, definitely one of my biggest fears, digress.**
So while I'm going through these pictures and seeing all of these people who have had impacts on my life I just start to think, got dammit I'm the reason these people only talk to me once a year, when I actually decide to show myself at home. Whatever, the past is the past right?
This lead me to think, damn it'll probably be the same thing with people that I've met in college. I'll have a few people that I'm still cool with then the rest just face to face associates.
Then this lead me to thinking about careers, and life, and finally death. And somehow I came to the realization that I am the reason that I will have to be in the situation that I am most scared of... whatever digress.
So after this I started thinking about people from my past, and how I've helped them out (at least I would like to think so). Of all these people, do I still talk to them? Do they still need people to talk to? and so on and so forth.
I guess this rant end with a pretty obvious claim and a challenge. People die everyday and no matter what the age is, it always seems unexpected or too soon. These people that you've had stories with, laughed with, cried with, they're not promised a certain amount of time on this earth man. And the shittiest feeling in the world is if that person passes away and the only thing you can say is, it's been so long since I've talked to them, or Damn, we used to be so close.
So my challenge to anyone, Idk if people even read these shits but whatever, is to reach out to a couple of these people everyday in your spare time. See if they're ok. See if they're accomplishing their goals and dreams. At the very least, pray for protection and energy for them. Because you don't want to be that person at the end of your life wondering who cares that your time is coming to an end, or if you made an impact on people's lives.
You can't change the past, but you can reflect on it and use it to change your future. Learn from the lessons that you teach yourself during self-reflection. You're the only person that truly knows what you need to do in the end.
Whatever, my thoughts.
-Marcus J.
Seeing how it is my fourth year in college, a lot of my colleagues will be graduating but due to my work/class schedule I will not. This makes me think of life, and everything that comes with it. How crazy it is that in a matter of seconds, minutes, hours, any amount of time your whole life can change permanently. Like that's actually crazy to think about, but I digress whatever.
So where did my thoughts lead me? To pictures and videos and posts and things of that sort to every social media outlet I've had since I was in middle school. From MySpace to FaceBook and all of that shit. Looking through pictures, thinking about the story that correlates with every one and the people who were in my life during those periods.
The joys and triumphs at every period and the people that were there with me to celebrate them, and also the hard times that I faced and the people who were there for me in my darkest moments.
And you want to know what I thought about? Where are these people now? All of these beautiful souls that helped me to get to where I am today, where are they? Of all the people that are in these pictures and these posts, shit even my top friends on MySpace (throwback right? haha) but where are they?
Then on top of that I began to think... Damn, do we not talk any more because of them or because of me? All of these "friends" that I had, why haven't I heard from any of them? My number's been the same since I was a freshman in high-school so it can't be me right? Wrong...
So from these thoughts I went into a period of self-reflection. Reflecting on all of the good times, all the bad times, all the people I've judged, all the people I wouldn't open up to, all the people I saw as just in my life for a season so I refused to put an effort into making a lasting relationship.
**Side note: one of my biggest fears is that I will end up alone in my final hour. Which of course is the way the world works, you're born alone and you die alone right? But the one thing that I do not want to do is die by myself. I think it has something to do with me being put in an incubator when I was born, but nobody knows those effects, I'm not sure of any studies on that lol. Anyways yeah, definitely one of my biggest fears, digress.**
So while I'm going through these pictures and seeing all of these people who have had impacts on my life I just start to think, got dammit I'm the reason these people only talk to me once a year, when I actually decide to show myself at home. Whatever, the past is the past right?
This lead me to think, damn it'll probably be the same thing with people that I've met in college. I'll have a few people that I'm still cool with then the rest just face to face associates.
Then this lead me to thinking about careers, and life, and finally death. And somehow I came to the realization that I am the reason that I will have to be in the situation that I am most scared of... whatever digress.
So after this I started thinking about people from my past, and how I've helped them out (at least I would like to think so). Of all these people, do I still talk to them? Do they still need people to talk to? and so on and so forth.
I guess this rant end with a pretty obvious claim and a challenge. People die everyday and no matter what the age is, it always seems unexpected or too soon. These people that you've had stories with, laughed with, cried with, they're not promised a certain amount of time on this earth man. And the shittiest feeling in the world is if that person passes away and the only thing you can say is, it's been so long since I've talked to them, or Damn, we used to be so close.
So my challenge to anyone, Idk if people even read these shits but whatever, is to reach out to a couple of these people everyday in your spare time. See if they're ok. See if they're accomplishing their goals and dreams. At the very least, pray for protection and energy for them. Because you don't want to be that person at the end of your life wondering who cares that your time is coming to an end, or if you made an impact on people's lives.
You can't change the past, but you can reflect on it and use it to change your future. Learn from the lessons that you teach yourself during self-reflection. You're the only person that truly knows what you need to do in the end.
Whatever, my thoughts.
-Marcus J.
Wednesday, November 6, 2013
The Lessons from the Life of Socrates
OK, so for this post I'm not doing anything but ranting about how messed up the system is. Education, government, religion, etc. They're all systems now. They're all set up where an individual who asks questions that stump the higher ups or who tries to simplify things are looked down upon and outcast.
This all came to my mind when I was reading about the life of Socrates. I've always heard Socrates quotes, or read his writings, or his foundations that he laid for Western philosophy, but I had never really heard about his life.
**Side Note: I've been researching what people have done in their 20's to achieve levels of great success because I believe I am destined for that summit. Not trying to reinvent the wheel, I'm just trying to combine great people's footsteps and walk the same path. Hate if you want, join if you want.**
Anyways, you hear all about this great philosopher, arguably the greatest known to date, but you never hear about his life and death. So I researched it, not hard to find I just Google'd it. Found several pages so I went through them all. The most interesting page was a page that detailed the Trial of Socrates with the background to his death. -Since Socrates actually didn't write much, much of the details are found through Plato's writings, since he was Socrates' student and witnessed everything first hand. Or Xenophon, or however you spell it, because he was a student and a historian who may have been more accurate. I digress.
If you don't know the story it's pretty deep. This is basically what happened. Socrates was known as the wisest man in Athens or the surrounding areas because of his philosophy and all that he did, no surprise. He was regarded as a great man, until he disclaimed being wise.
"I know that I know nothing" is what he said, right? So from this point he went and questioned all of the authority of Athens until they were proven to not have the answers he was looking for. He did this to many greats in Athens, including politicians and councilmen, until he began an uproar.
Well of course these people in power don't want to be proven to be just normal people after all, so what did they do? They sentenced him to death by poison. Why? For corrupting the minds of the youth and impiety.
He also could have got out of his death by having his following convince the guards to let him out, but he took it like a boss and said he would stay for it was his time to die and no true philosopher fears death. My nigga. I digress.
Now did he do anything wrong? No. He publicly questioned the wisest men in the state, which is what you are supposed to do when you need answers right? Then he belittled them by saying that he was unwise, which them angry because of the paradox that he was the wisest man in Athens. Go figure.
So they killed him. Flat out made him drink some poison and told him to walk until he couldn't feel his legs, then lay down so the poison could get to his heart. Pretty ruthless.
How does any of this relate to the system? Simple. I'll give you a few examples from my life personally.
Many times as a Christian you are told to ask WWJD, right? but if you check The Gospels, the answer to that question doesn't exist when you're in your 20's. So, what have I been doing? I have been asking people what did Jesus do when he was my age. Did I receive any answers that have pleased me yet? Nope.
As a Christian, any religion, you must believe in blind faith or whatever, but what if that's not good enough? And, if you've read previous blogs, The Bible is very loosely translated and even the perception of Jesus has been tainted throughout Europe and into America, so why must I believe everything that these tainted church's have told me if they cannot answer this question?
Why am I not allowed to ask what Jesus was doing when he was my age, but I am supposed to believe that he lived without a single sin for 33 years on this corrupt earth and is the sole way to everlasting life? What is the problem with this simple question?
Easy, it can not be found by the majority of preachers. You know the same ones I talked about leading these corrupt churches. The system wants you to go to their services, give them money, and listen to the same little excerpts that they pick out of this loosely translated Bible instead of asking questions that they cannot answer.
Another example, ask a politician what's wrong with socialism. In a time where the top 1% of the country, who have made their money off of corrupting millions of people since the slavery days (maybe even before) to get their wealth that they continue to stretch to the point of no return, what's wrong with them giving money to the rest of the people who are driving the government into debt, from what politicians say, because of Social Security and government programs like food stamps and things of the sort?
Why can't those people, who spend millions of dollars on private jets and competing to have the largest super yacht give that money instead to black communities that have been on the decline since Reaganomics disrupted the black family and the black power movement started in the 60's and 70's. Digress.
Aren't these fair questions? I would like to think so, right?
Another question, why are people scared of a revolution when this sole thing is what this nation was founded on? If the system's broke, like our forefathers believed England was, you go to any means you can to fix it! And the government knows it's coming. Their preparing police all over the nation with hollow tip rounds and kevlar like they're preparing for a war. Armories that were dormant are being revitalized like an invasion is coming, but what America doesn't know is that the invasion is coming from within. I'll digress on this point until a later post, but if you don't believe me get on YouTube and search Civil Unrest in America. Crazy stuff that's happening without people even being aware of it. Whatever.
Back to the point
What happens in this system, is these questions are frowned upon. People who ask questions are written off immediately while the media portrays everything as "evil" and not as good as what we have now. WELL CLEARLY WHAT WE HAVE NOW ISN'T FUCKIN WORKING!
As a kid, you're only allowed questions in class when you raise your hand. If the teacher doesn't know, and the child continues to ask they are placed in detention or timeout or whatever.
If you ask these questions in church, you are written off as not having faith or some other question is brought up to make it seem as though you are wrong.
If you bring these questions up to a politician you are seen as a radical or a terrorist that doesn't have faith in the country.
I could really go on all day about the way the world doesn't want you to ask questions, but please don't give in. If you have a feeling, or there is something that goes against your logic question it until you find an answer.
My greatest hope with this blog is that by some way of the universe people spread it and see the questions that are on here and spark questions of their own. Because, there are answers for everything it's all a matter of how hard you are willing to search before you find them.
I'll be done with my rant now. I hope you read all of the way through.
As always feel free to comment where I was wrong or your personal opinions I appreciate all thoughts and perspectives that are given with respect.
These are just my thoughts.
-Marcus J.
This all came to my mind when I was reading about the life of Socrates. I've always heard Socrates quotes, or read his writings, or his foundations that he laid for Western philosophy, but I had never really heard about his life.
**Side Note: I've been researching what people have done in their 20's to achieve levels of great success because I believe I am destined for that summit. Not trying to reinvent the wheel, I'm just trying to combine great people's footsteps and walk the same path. Hate if you want, join if you want.**
Anyways, you hear all about this great philosopher, arguably the greatest known to date, but you never hear about his life and death. So I researched it, not hard to find I just Google'd it. Found several pages so I went through them all. The most interesting page was a page that detailed the Trial of Socrates with the background to his death. -Since Socrates actually didn't write much, much of the details are found through Plato's writings, since he was Socrates' student and witnessed everything first hand. Or Xenophon, or however you spell it, because he was a student and a historian who may have been more accurate. I digress.
If you don't know the story it's pretty deep. This is basically what happened. Socrates was known as the wisest man in Athens or the surrounding areas because of his philosophy and all that he did, no surprise. He was regarded as a great man, until he disclaimed being wise.
"I know that I know nothing" is what he said, right? So from this point he went and questioned all of the authority of Athens until they were proven to not have the answers he was looking for. He did this to many greats in Athens, including politicians and councilmen, until he began an uproar.
Well of course these people in power don't want to be proven to be just normal people after all, so what did they do? They sentenced him to death by poison. Why? For corrupting the minds of the youth and impiety.
He also could have got out of his death by having his following convince the guards to let him out, but he took it like a boss and said he would stay for it was his time to die and no true philosopher fears death. My nigga. I digress.
Now did he do anything wrong? No. He publicly questioned the wisest men in the state, which is what you are supposed to do when you need answers right? Then he belittled them by saying that he was unwise, which them angry because of the paradox that he was the wisest man in Athens. Go figure.
So they killed him. Flat out made him drink some poison and told him to walk until he couldn't feel his legs, then lay down so the poison could get to his heart. Pretty ruthless.
How does any of this relate to the system? Simple. I'll give you a few examples from my life personally.
Many times as a Christian you are told to ask WWJD, right? but if you check The Gospels, the answer to that question doesn't exist when you're in your 20's. So, what have I been doing? I have been asking people what did Jesus do when he was my age. Did I receive any answers that have pleased me yet? Nope.
As a Christian, any religion, you must believe in blind faith or whatever, but what if that's not good enough? And, if you've read previous blogs, The Bible is very loosely translated and even the perception of Jesus has been tainted throughout Europe and into America, so why must I believe everything that these tainted church's have told me if they cannot answer this question?
Why am I not allowed to ask what Jesus was doing when he was my age, but I am supposed to believe that he lived without a single sin for 33 years on this corrupt earth and is the sole way to everlasting life? What is the problem with this simple question?
Easy, it can not be found by the majority of preachers. You know the same ones I talked about leading these corrupt churches. The system wants you to go to their services, give them money, and listen to the same little excerpts that they pick out of this loosely translated Bible instead of asking questions that they cannot answer.
Another example, ask a politician what's wrong with socialism. In a time where the top 1% of the country, who have made their money off of corrupting millions of people since the slavery days (maybe even before) to get their wealth that they continue to stretch to the point of no return, what's wrong with them giving money to the rest of the people who are driving the government into debt, from what politicians say, because of Social Security and government programs like food stamps and things of the sort?
Why can't those people, who spend millions of dollars on private jets and competing to have the largest super yacht give that money instead to black communities that have been on the decline since Reaganomics disrupted the black family and the black power movement started in the 60's and 70's. Digress.
Aren't these fair questions? I would like to think so, right?
Another question, why are people scared of a revolution when this sole thing is what this nation was founded on? If the system's broke, like our forefathers believed England was, you go to any means you can to fix it! And the government knows it's coming. Their preparing police all over the nation with hollow tip rounds and kevlar like they're preparing for a war. Armories that were dormant are being revitalized like an invasion is coming, but what America doesn't know is that the invasion is coming from within. I'll digress on this point until a later post, but if you don't believe me get on YouTube and search Civil Unrest in America. Crazy stuff that's happening without people even being aware of it. Whatever.
Back to the point
What happens in this system, is these questions are frowned upon. People who ask questions are written off immediately while the media portrays everything as "evil" and not as good as what we have now. WELL CLEARLY WHAT WE HAVE NOW ISN'T FUCKIN WORKING!
As a kid, you're only allowed questions in class when you raise your hand. If the teacher doesn't know, and the child continues to ask they are placed in detention or timeout or whatever.
If you ask these questions in church, you are written off as not having faith or some other question is brought up to make it seem as though you are wrong.
If you bring these questions up to a politician you are seen as a radical or a terrorist that doesn't have faith in the country.
I could really go on all day about the way the world doesn't want you to ask questions, but please don't give in. If you have a feeling, or there is something that goes against your logic question it until you find an answer.
My greatest hope with this blog is that by some way of the universe people spread it and see the questions that are on here and spark questions of their own. Because, there are answers for everything it's all a matter of how hard you are willing to search before you find them.
I'll be done with my rant now. I hope you read all of the way through.
As always feel free to comment where I was wrong or your personal opinions I appreciate all thoughts and perspectives that are given with respect.
These are just my thoughts.
-Marcus J.
Friday, November 1, 2013
How Do You Fight What You Can't See? [Part I]
Hello all. Don't really have a direction in this post but it is something that has been on my mind so I figure I'll work on this post for a couple of days to get my thoughts out and see if I come to any type of conclusion.
If you are unaware, I am biracial. On top of that I come from a lower socioeconomic neighborhood and family tree. And when I say that I mean both of my parents income when they were together still did not reach six figures. Now that they are divorced and paying college tuition, times get tough from time to time.
Being faced with both of these barriers I was faced with a lot growing up, and not a lot in a sense where I couldn't make it by with what was provided me -problems are all relative to what you know- but I definitely overcame many obstacles to get to where I am now.
But in overcoming those obstacles I let some things sink in throughout. You know, the obstacles that are the hardest to overcome. The ones that don't come in from a direct decision but from observations. Of these, insecurities, inferiority complexes, many psychological issues, and false understandings which were never directly debunked to me.
I believe this is how things such as class-ism and racism continue to stay so strong in the minds of people. Of course they began with the utmost of ignorance, but through that ignorance stereotypes were born and raised. As time continued, and systematic racism continued, stereotypes spread faster than people could. I'll digress for the time being.
As I've stated in an earlier blog, I've been reading a book called Brainwashed by Tom Burrell. I'm not going to go in depth on the book but it is a book that challenges the Black Inferiority complex. This is the belief that black people are not as intelligent, sexual beasts, violent/loud, etc. (you know the stereotypical thoughts of black people that was established during the implementation of slavery and held onto ever since). This book has made me think of many things, though.
Coming from a place where many people have these thoughts that they are inferior, I decided that although the BI complex is a great burden there is an even greater complex that allows class-ism to be just as influential, if not greater. It is true many black men and women get hit with the double whammy, but (seeing how my white family is not much better off) poorer white people are not far ahead.
The belief that these rich people and people in these positions of power deserve it because of what they have done is sometimes ridiculous. This false "majority" who continues to make laws and rules which work for them is a wash. The fact that I watched my dad for the better part of my life work 12-15 hour days, make almost nothing due to his salary, and then lose his job while the CEO shut down the company and took the money they wanted to be good is ridiculous. Tell me who deserves what? I digress, the universe comes around for everyone. That's a fact.
So one thing that has been on my mind for a while is, how do you fight these things? Personally and as a society? And above that, how do you get people to see that there is something wrong with this system when they're comfortable with it?
Why are black people fine with living in "the hood" and why are other people fine pretending like the nation is perfect. How is it possible to spread knowledge about the wrong doing of the "majority" when the actual majority fails to realize the power they have?
Then when people finally get to a position where they can tell of the evil, they get written off as being crazy or killed. So who is actually willing to ride for the cause when their life is the sacrifice for the greater good?
These are questions that people have had for years, but somehow in this new generation we stopped fighting. We became complacent. We left the work of our grandparents and parents at the door, while we chill in the house.
This is really just a rant, whatever, but what will it take to rally people? And not just for long enough to allow America to write it off, but enough to make an actual change. To put all of these "false prophets" [See last post] in their place. Whether they be politicians, pastors preaching in the name of the Devil, teachers teaching their history, or people in the media spreading the lies of the nation to the masses.
I have many questions but no answers. I figured I would start with a blog, ta da, but above putting my perspective into words, how do you foster change in an age where being complacent is praised and being a revolutionary is terrorism. If I recall correctly, this nation was based on a revolution. And there have been several since which have shaped this country.
How do we begin one in our generation? How do we take the country away from the old ways of thinking and implement change? After all, the technology age is forcing everyone to adapt faster in every aspect. Consumer goods, business practices, even dating is different everyday. Yet we still abide by the same rules and regulations that our grandparents did. IT'S A NEW DAY!!
As soon as people begin to wake up change can be made, but people continue to sleep walk through these times because they are "comfortable." But one day, that comfort will be all fucked up and everyone will be wondering what happened.
Our government is out of date. When milk spoils you replace it. When a player on an NBA team gets too old and tired, he is traded or released if he refuses to retire. We see this common theme in every aspect of life, yet are comfortable with it in the government and ways of thinking about people and classifying people. COME ON MAN!!
I guess the base of my questions is a list of why's and how's. So as you can see this is a Part I, because I haven't thought of any answers that I can formulate right now but I will come back and post on this topic later with my solution, which I'm sure will be very entertaining.
Until then just the final questions that I'll be thinking about:
How do we get rid of things that are rooted into our nation (i.e. institutionalized racism)?
How do we get people to see that the nation is no longer a nation of the people/persuade people to take a stand?
How do we expose this "majority" and empower the people?
How do we fight the things that we cannot see?
Just my thoughts.
-Marcus J.
P.S. I don't know if people can follow this one, so as always feel free to leave comments and questions.
If you are unaware, I am biracial. On top of that I come from a lower socioeconomic neighborhood and family tree. And when I say that I mean both of my parents income when they were together still did not reach six figures. Now that they are divorced and paying college tuition, times get tough from time to time.
Being faced with both of these barriers I was faced with a lot growing up, and not a lot in a sense where I couldn't make it by with what was provided me -problems are all relative to what you know- but I definitely overcame many obstacles to get to where I am now.
But in overcoming those obstacles I let some things sink in throughout. You know, the obstacles that are the hardest to overcome. The ones that don't come in from a direct decision but from observations. Of these, insecurities, inferiority complexes, many psychological issues, and false understandings which were never directly debunked to me.
I believe this is how things such as class-ism and racism continue to stay so strong in the minds of people. Of course they began with the utmost of ignorance, but through that ignorance stereotypes were born and raised. As time continued, and systematic racism continued, stereotypes spread faster than people could. I'll digress for the time being.
As I've stated in an earlier blog, I've been reading a book called Brainwashed by Tom Burrell. I'm not going to go in depth on the book but it is a book that challenges the Black Inferiority complex. This is the belief that black people are not as intelligent, sexual beasts, violent/loud, etc. (you know the stereotypical thoughts of black people that was established during the implementation of slavery and held onto ever since). This book has made me think of many things, though.
Coming from a place where many people have these thoughts that they are inferior, I decided that although the BI complex is a great burden there is an even greater complex that allows class-ism to be just as influential, if not greater. It is true many black men and women get hit with the double whammy, but (seeing how my white family is not much better off) poorer white people are not far ahead.
The belief that these rich people and people in these positions of power deserve it because of what they have done is sometimes ridiculous. This false "majority" who continues to make laws and rules which work for them is a wash. The fact that I watched my dad for the better part of my life work 12-15 hour days, make almost nothing due to his salary, and then lose his job while the CEO shut down the company and took the money they wanted to be good is ridiculous. Tell me who deserves what? I digress, the universe comes around for everyone. That's a fact.
So one thing that has been on my mind for a while is, how do you fight these things? Personally and as a society? And above that, how do you get people to see that there is something wrong with this system when they're comfortable with it?
Why are black people fine with living in "the hood" and why are other people fine pretending like the nation is perfect. How is it possible to spread knowledge about the wrong doing of the "majority" when the actual majority fails to realize the power they have?
Then when people finally get to a position where they can tell of the evil, they get written off as being crazy or killed. So who is actually willing to ride for the cause when their life is the sacrifice for the greater good?
These are questions that people have had for years, but somehow in this new generation we stopped fighting. We became complacent. We left the work of our grandparents and parents at the door, while we chill in the house.
This is really just a rant, whatever, but what will it take to rally people? And not just for long enough to allow America to write it off, but enough to make an actual change. To put all of these "false prophets" [See last post] in their place. Whether they be politicians, pastors preaching in the name of the Devil, teachers teaching their history, or people in the media spreading the lies of the nation to the masses.
I have many questions but no answers. I figured I would start with a blog, ta da, but above putting my perspective into words, how do you foster change in an age where being complacent is praised and being a revolutionary is terrorism. If I recall correctly, this nation was based on a revolution. And there have been several since which have shaped this country.
How do we begin one in our generation? How do we take the country away from the old ways of thinking and implement change? After all, the technology age is forcing everyone to adapt faster in every aspect. Consumer goods, business practices, even dating is different everyday. Yet we still abide by the same rules and regulations that our grandparents did. IT'S A NEW DAY!!
As soon as people begin to wake up change can be made, but people continue to sleep walk through these times because they are "comfortable." But one day, that comfort will be all fucked up and everyone will be wondering what happened.
Our government is out of date. When milk spoils you replace it. When a player on an NBA team gets too old and tired, he is traded or released if he refuses to retire. We see this common theme in every aspect of life, yet are comfortable with it in the government and ways of thinking about people and classifying people. COME ON MAN!!
I guess the base of my questions is a list of why's and how's. So as you can see this is a Part I, because I haven't thought of any answers that I can formulate right now but I will come back and post on this topic later with my solution, which I'm sure will be very entertaining.
Until then just the final questions that I'll be thinking about:
How do we get rid of things that are rooted into our nation (i.e. institutionalized racism)?
How do we get people to see that the nation is no longer a nation of the people/persuade people to take a stand?
How do we expose this "majority" and empower the people?
How do we fight the things that we cannot see?
Just my thoughts.
-Marcus J.
P.S. I don't know if people can follow this one, so as always feel free to leave comments and questions.
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
Ravenous Wolves in Sheep's Clothing
So for my next post there's not really any crazy logic, maybe a touch, and maybe a little controversial, but for the most part it is truly just a rant. If you do not catch the allusion in the title of this post, it is from The Good Book, aka The Holy Bible.
Now from my previous posts, you probably think that I'm some type of atheist, or some weird religion, from the things that I've said. My response to you is no, that's stupid. I believe in the Almighty Lord. I have been baptized as a Methodist, accepted Jesus into my heart when I was in the 4th grade -note idk if there's such a thing as becoming an un-Christian but I might be near that point, not in a bad way though- and I used to attend church at least 3 times a week. I also went to a Christian school from 4th to 8th grade, pivotal years in my life for the most part, and I pray at least twice a day in which I like to make sure one of those prayers is 5-10 minutes at least. I also read my Bible, if not daily at least 3 times a week, since many churches rehash the same verses and chapters.
So, once again, I am not a scholar. I am not a pastor, priest, bishop, did not even finish confirmation into the Methodist church; but I will be discussing the Bible in this post.
With all that being said I begin with Matthew 7:15.
**Quick Side Note: The reason I began this blog is because I felt lost to a certain extent. I found myself going on a "Soul Search" type of thing and all of the things I began thinking about, I just had to get out of my head. This search lead me to question many things, including religion, my own habits/actions, and life in general. Keep this in mind while reading the rest of this post; and all other posts for that matter.**
Anyways, if you are not familiar with Matthew 7:15 and do not feel like Google-ing it, it says the following:
“Beware of false prophets, who come to you in sheep's clothing but inwardly are ravenous wolves."
So this isn't that crazy of a statement right? But when reading the whole chapter of Matthew 7, I began to question many things. The chapter talks about how you can tell these false prophets by the "fruit" they produce. For the people who do not get the metaphor it's simply you can call people for their BS through their actions.
In the chapter Jesus speaks about people who are judgmental, people who commit terrible crimes against their neighbor, people who think of themselves as higher than anyone else in society. You know, those hypocritical people that say they are disciples of the Lord then go on to only choose the scripture that works in their favor, then disregard the rest of the Bible to prove their point.
These are usually the same people who take ideas and disguise them as things that are meant to help the people that they "care" about but are actually just for personal gain, the facade is just something that they can get many people to buy into as long as they can seem genuine enough - i.e. people who start charity organizations just to get a tax write off, then they eventually take the proceeds from the donations anyways. I think you can understand what I am getting at by now. I digress.
From this chapter, though, I began questioning many things; mainly established religion. These so called "Christians" who wear their Sunday's best to church in order to not be judged, and also in order to judge those of whom cannot afford these types of things -and really those "Christians" who judge people/gossip at all [Matthew 7:1-5]. These so called "servants of the Lord" that reap great amounts of money from their congregations and live a wealthy life while they watch people in their church struggle, as many times those are the people who truly live how Christ would have wanted.
Example, any million dollar preacher.
*Personal Aside - I have been to many churches in my life. Most times when I have went with my entire family, you know black dad and white mom, I would overhear the worst comments about our family. All this judgement might have lead me to the point I am at now, digress. Through all of this, though, I watched my parents, who are nowhere near perfect, live through the ways of the Lord. From taking in my friends and family who had problems at their homes, to my dad being the neighborhood father since many fathers were not around. For people to judge families because of their income or situation at a church is the most evil thing I think is possible. To call yourself a Christian is a direct smack in the face to the Almighty. If you don't believe that, once again you can Google Jesus parable about the Pharisee who prays loudly, or how he feels about rich people getting into heaven, or read Matthew 7 in its entirety. That statement is not up for comment or discussion. That, my friend, is nothing but factual*
My question is this, right? How do you, as a servant of the Lord, feel comfortable taking people's money that are less fortunate then you? How do you, one leading the community in the light of Christ, feel at ease with gathering material possessions by the load?
I am pretty sure Jesus did none of these things. I am pretty sure Jesus told his disciples to drop their nets and follow him, their nets being their worldly job (I know not all the disciples were fisherman). [This is where you correct me if I am wrong]
So off the back, my search led me to believe there are many corrupt pastors. Many pastors who are false prophets and they might not even know it. After all, what if someone came to them with an opportunity to leave all of their worldly possessions behind to go to a live in a desert to spread the word of Christ, say where there are jihads . You think they're jumping at that chance to spread the Word of the Lord to those people, who are in need of it? Some might... Majority, I'm doubting that. They've turned churches into businesses where they sell the Word. So I am labeling those type of people as false prophets, comment if you want. [Before you comment read Matthew 7:22-23, that is exactly what I am talking about]
From here, I began looking inward at myself. I am one of the people who have been being lead by these false prophets, so that evil energy (see my last posts) has been being sent in my direction for years without me denying it. So, yes, I found much negative energy in my soul. Much of it wasn't just brought on me by these false prophets at the church, but false prophets elsewhere.
Whether they were mentors, friends, family; these false prophets who preached to me about love and honesty and virtue, I finally started seeing the "fruit" that they produced.
So what did I do, that I continue to do because these false prophets never cease to enter into your life, you may wanna know? I laid by myself, in a pitch black room and prayed, not in the name of the Jesus I had been taught, but to the Almighty Father of the Universe. What did I ask for? [Reference my last post, I don't believe in praying for anything material or physical; mostly just energy and wisdom] I asked for sight. Not just seeing physically, I have near 20/20 vision, I asked for spiritual sight. A sight that could see through these kind of people and take mental notes of the fruit that they produced so that I would never be tainted again. [Once again before you comment read Matthew 7:7-8]
I've always had a knack for calling people for the frauds that they are.- some people call it street sense, I just know it's God leading me through life until I wake up from the sleep walk- and I swear to you, after I laid in my room for these countless hours and had this conversation with God, I woke up the next day and I felt a weight lifted off my shoulders.
But, see, I'm never going to be like these people that start to believe that they've been enlightened and not going to help other people get to this same point of knowledge. I cannot think of the verse in the Bible, I think it's in Matthew 15, where Jesus talks about the blind leading the blind into a pit. EVEN JESUS WOULD ALLOW THESE PEOPLE TO SUFFER! [Please correct me if I am wrong]
My calling, to share my perspective, and my experience, and my findings to people who are being led by the blind, the corrupt, those people who produce evil fruit. I think it's in Psalm 82 which says we are all the children of God the Almighty so we are all gods in our own right. I will yell until I can no longer yell until people know that these corrupt people are not the answer. These people who eat the whole pig and toss the bacon to the crowd, who appear to be great leaders of the community, regardless of what realm they are in, need to be confronted. They need to be given their own fruit and ask if they think that fruit is evil or not. They need to be seen for what they are, and if they continue their ways they need to be allowed to blindly fall into an everlasting pit by themselves because they have been corrupted to the core and at that point there is no chance to save them. But the people who still have a chance must be saved from following them.
One of my adviser's tell me all of the time, "Marcus, not every mission is your mission. Know your mission." And yeah, that is right to an extent, but when I see the masses being corrupted because they are being led by people who should not be leading them, due to their inability to see, I refuse to believe that that is not my mission.
Have I done wrong? Of course. Will I do wrong again? Without a doubt in my mind. Because we are all human. We are all corrupted by this evil that is thrown around with no cares as people get rich and publicize it to the masses. I digress.
The point of this is to open your eyes. Have that talk with whatever you believe in, because at the end of the day there is only one creator of this universe. Ask that Almighty Being for sight, once again not physical sight but spiritual sight. A sight where you can see clearly the fruit produced by people and if it is truly as pure as they say it is, or if it is filled with evil spirits and toxins.
Ask for the energy to recognize Ravenous Wolves in Sheep's Clothing.
As always, these are just my thoughts.
-Marcus J.
Now from my previous posts, you probably think that I'm some type of atheist, or some weird religion, from the things that I've said. My response to you is no, that's stupid. I believe in the Almighty Lord. I have been baptized as a Methodist, accepted Jesus into my heart when I was in the 4th grade -note idk if there's such a thing as becoming an un-Christian but I might be near that point, not in a bad way though- and I used to attend church at least 3 times a week. I also went to a Christian school from 4th to 8th grade, pivotal years in my life for the most part, and I pray at least twice a day in which I like to make sure one of those prayers is 5-10 minutes at least. I also read my Bible, if not daily at least 3 times a week, since many churches rehash the same verses and chapters.
So, once again, I am not a scholar. I am not a pastor, priest, bishop, did not even finish confirmation into the Methodist church; but I will be discussing the Bible in this post.
With all that being said I begin with Matthew 7:15.
**Quick Side Note: The reason I began this blog is because I felt lost to a certain extent. I found myself going on a "Soul Search" type of thing and all of the things I began thinking about, I just had to get out of my head. This search lead me to question many things, including religion, my own habits/actions, and life in general. Keep this in mind while reading the rest of this post; and all other posts for that matter.**
Anyways, if you are not familiar with Matthew 7:15 and do not feel like Google-ing it, it says the following:
“Beware of false prophets, who come to you in sheep's clothing but inwardly are ravenous wolves."
So this isn't that crazy of a statement right? But when reading the whole chapter of Matthew 7, I began to question many things. The chapter talks about how you can tell these false prophets by the "fruit" they produce. For the people who do not get the metaphor it's simply you can call people for their BS through their actions.
In the chapter Jesus speaks about people who are judgmental, people who commit terrible crimes against their neighbor, people who think of themselves as higher than anyone else in society. You know, those hypocritical people that say they are disciples of the Lord then go on to only choose the scripture that works in their favor, then disregard the rest of the Bible to prove their point.
These are usually the same people who take ideas and disguise them as things that are meant to help the people that they "care" about but are actually just for personal gain, the facade is just something that they can get many people to buy into as long as they can seem genuine enough - i.e. people who start charity organizations just to get a tax write off, then they eventually take the proceeds from the donations anyways. I think you can understand what I am getting at by now. I digress.
From this chapter, though, I began questioning many things; mainly established religion. These so called "Christians" who wear their Sunday's best to church in order to not be judged, and also in order to judge those of whom cannot afford these types of things -and really those "Christians" who judge people/gossip at all [Matthew 7:1-5]. These so called "servants of the Lord" that reap great amounts of money from their congregations and live a wealthy life while they watch people in their church struggle, as many times those are the people who truly live how Christ would have wanted.
Example, any million dollar preacher.
*Personal Aside - I have been to many churches in my life. Most times when I have went with my entire family, you know black dad and white mom, I would overhear the worst comments about our family. All this judgement might have lead me to the point I am at now, digress. Through all of this, though, I watched my parents, who are nowhere near perfect, live through the ways of the Lord. From taking in my friends and family who had problems at their homes, to my dad being the neighborhood father since many fathers were not around. For people to judge families because of their income or situation at a church is the most evil thing I think is possible. To call yourself a Christian is a direct smack in the face to the Almighty. If you don't believe that, once again you can Google Jesus parable about the Pharisee who prays loudly, or how he feels about rich people getting into heaven, or read Matthew 7 in its entirety. That statement is not up for comment or discussion. That, my friend, is nothing but factual*
My question is this, right? How do you, as a servant of the Lord, feel comfortable taking people's money that are less fortunate then you? How do you, one leading the community in the light of Christ, feel at ease with gathering material possessions by the load?
I am pretty sure Jesus did none of these things. I am pretty sure Jesus told his disciples to drop their nets and follow him, their nets being their worldly job (I know not all the disciples were fisherman). [This is where you correct me if I am wrong]
So off the back, my search led me to believe there are many corrupt pastors. Many pastors who are false prophets and they might not even know it. After all, what if someone came to them with an opportunity to leave all of their worldly possessions behind to go to a live in a desert to spread the word of Christ, say where there are jihads . You think they're jumping at that chance to spread the Word of the Lord to those people, who are in need of it? Some might... Majority, I'm doubting that. They've turned churches into businesses where they sell the Word. So I am labeling those type of people as false prophets, comment if you want. [Before you comment read Matthew 7:22-23, that is exactly what I am talking about]
From here, I began looking inward at myself. I am one of the people who have been being lead by these false prophets, so that evil energy (see my last posts) has been being sent in my direction for years without me denying it. So, yes, I found much negative energy in my soul. Much of it wasn't just brought on me by these false prophets at the church, but false prophets elsewhere.
Whether they were mentors, friends, family; these false prophets who preached to me about love and honesty and virtue, I finally started seeing the "fruit" that they produced.
So what did I do, that I continue to do because these false prophets never cease to enter into your life, you may wanna know? I laid by myself, in a pitch black room and prayed, not in the name of the Jesus I had been taught, but to the Almighty Father of the Universe. What did I ask for? [Reference my last post, I don't believe in praying for anything material or physical; mostly just energy and wisdom] I asked for sight. Not just seeing physically, I have near 20/20 vision, I asked for spiritual sight. A sight that could see through these kind of people and take mental notes of the fruit that they produced so that I would never be tainted again. [Once again before you comment read Matthew 7:7-8]
I've always had a knack for calling people for the frauds that they are.- some people call it street sense, I just know it's God leading me through life until I wake up from the sleep walk- and I swear to you, after I laid in my room for these countless hours and had this conversation with God, I woke up the next day and I felt a weight lifted off my shoulders.
But, see, I'm never going to be like these people that start to believe that they've been enlightened and not going to help other people get to this same point of knowledge. I cannot think of the verse in the Bible, I think it's in Matthew 15, where Jesus talks about the blind leading the blind into a pit. EVEN JESUS WOULD ALLOW THESE PEOPLE TO SUFFER! [Please correct me if I am wrong]
My calling, to share my perspective, and my experience, and my findings to people who are being led by the blind, the corrupt, those people who produce evil fruit. I think it's in Psalm 82 which says we are all the children of God the Almighty so we are all gods in our own right. I will yell until I can no longer yell until people know that these corrupt people are not the answer. These people who eat the whole pig and toss the bacon to the crowd, who appear to be great leaders of the community, regardless of what realm they are in, need to be confronted. They need to be given their own fruit and ask if they think that fruit is evil or not. They need to be seen for what they are, and if they continue their ways they need to be allowed to blindly fall into an everlasting pit by themselves because they have been corrupted to the core and at that point there is no chance to save them. But the people who still have a chance must be saved from following them.
One of my adviser's tell me all of the time, "Marcus, not every mission is your mission. Know your mission." And yeah, that is right to an extent, but when I see the masses being corrupted because they are being led by people who should not be leading them, due to their inability to see, I refuse to believe that that is not my mission.
Have I done wrong? Of course. Will I do wrong again? Without a doubt in my mind. Because we are all human. We are all corrupted by this evil that is thrown around with no cares as people get rich and publicize it to the masses. I digress.
The point of this is to open your eyes. Have that talk with whatever you believe in, because at the end of the day there is only one creator of this universe. Ask that Almighty Being for sight, once again not physical sight but spiritual sight. A sight where you can see clearly the fruit produced by people and if it is truly as pure as they say it is, or if it is filled with evil spirits and toxins.
Ask for the energy to recognize Ravenous Wolves in Sheep's Clothing.
As always, these are just my thoughts.
-Marcus J.
Read My First Thing Before You Jump to Conclusions
Ok, this is just a short post because the title pretty much says everything I need to say. In my first post, title First Thing, I clearly state that I do not think I'm some type of demi god or a self proclaimed intellectual. I say that these are my thoughts from my perspective because, as many people should know, EVERYONE HAS A DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE!
With that being said, once again, if you disagree with anything, comment respectfully and if you know me personally come and talk to me about it. I am always open for a good conversation about controversial topics.
With that being said, enjoy seeing things in a different light.
-Marcus J
With that being said, once again, if you disagree with anything, comment respectfully and if you know me personally come and talk to me about it. I am always open for a good conversation about controversial topics.
With that being said, enjoy seeing things in a different light.
-Marcus J
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
Death Isn't the End of My Being...
So for my next post I plan on, once again, challenging common beliefs with some unruly logic. As you can tell by the title, I never think my existence in this universe will come to an end. Do I think I am immortal? Nah not really. Do I have my weird way of thinking to back up this rant? ABSOLUTELY!
So, seeing how I am still by the grace of the Almighty in the engineering school where I am, I have learned many theories, laws, and things of that nature that are "known" to be factual. The one that always bothered me the most is the physics law, the Law of the Conservation of Energy.
For those who don't know what it is, or cannot use the clues from the direct words of the law, it's basically that energy can neither be created nor destroyed. Seems simple right? But if you know about physics, you know a couple theoretical physicist have stretched this law to it's limit, as well, by questioning it. One guy named Albert Einstein did some crazy stuff with it, maybe you've heard of him... -Side note the theory of relativity is absolutely wild, and so is quantum theory; can't even begin to fathom stuff like that.
Back to the point, this theory always led me to have an infinite amount of questions.
**One more side note which is important to this post. I had a dear friend pass away this summer, and that is what really forced me to think about death seriously. She was just about to turn 21, had the world at her feet, and had the energy of 1,000 suns. Indirectly this post is a dedication to her, but you'll see how that happens at the end.**
I've always had a problem when thinking about death. As you can tell, my logic is twisted at times and from listening to what people tell you about afterlife there's no logical way anyone can comprehend just not existing. From what most people will tell you, if you don't die a horrific death and become a ghost/demon, you go to Happy Heaven or burn in hell. I've always had many questions about this concept, but I'll tackle that bully in a post later, for now let's just get back on topic.
So as I questioned this "not existing in the universe" fear, I thought about many things. For one, I watched the movie Immortals and had some crazy thoughts about a war in the after life. I also thought about many things which religious people will tell you. You know, your spirit going through the great gates of heaven into a party in paradise where we praise all day and feast with the great (enter a single religious belief group here) that have passed. [I completely disagree that only one group of religion gets into heaven as well but once again, that'll be in a later post] Ultimately, I found the first more appealing, but only through my logic.
I am a firm believer in the ways of the universe. If you are not, you might want to stop reading now. I only believe in the ways of the universe by applying this law of conservation of energy to everything. If you perform an action, you exert energy right? Even further, when you perform an action you have to think about the positives and negatives of that action. It's what people do, it's called having a conscience. If you do not have a conscience, you need more than religion to help you.
Back to the point, kind of not, but every thought, every voluntary action, every involuntary action that your body makes goes through the brain. If you don't know how the brain works -technically nobody does because it's the single most amazing thing ever, digress- you know you have roughly over 100 billion nerve cells called neurons which send some type of electrochemical impulses through your body. Now as stated in every post, I am not a neuroscientist and am no professional on the matter, but I'm pretty sure these electrical impulses amount to a shit load of energy.
No matter who you are, how "smart", how aware, whatever you think your status is, everyone's brain works the same. Some people have better sections of their brain than others, but at the end of the day they all work through these impulses. Every one has thoughts, can move their limbs for the most part, and things of the sort which require brain power.
Seeing how there's roughly 7 Billion people in the world, which increases quickly, I'm pretty sure it's safe to say that the energy only used to keep people alive is a significant amount.
Here's where my logic lead me.
If I think as much as I do, my brain must be throwing these electrochemical impulses out at some type of advanced rate right? But, see, the act of dying causes your brain to turn into a shut down factory. So where does the energy go? When I die, according to this "Law of the Universe" my thoughts are somewhere, because the energy that generates these thoughts can't just be destroyed. Even further, these thoughts, these energy impulses which lead me to think the way I do, have to be coming from somewhere, right? Who am I to create energy and go against this "Law of the Universe"?
So, this is what I came to believe after failing exams because of thinking so much about this and not sleeping for the better part of the months following my friend's funeral. When people die, it's not the end. That spirit that lives within you, that energy that you have -since it cannot be destroyed- it keeps going. And as a person, you receive the energy that you put into the universe.
I like to think of it as a big ass Karma bank, right? But there's some Almighty Power which is the teller and He's dealing energy with interest rates. So if you're working hard, exerting energy, on positive things then that energy of the people that have passed can be given to you. If you're spending your time exerting negative energy, well you get the hand you're dealt. You might receive some energy, but it'll be the energy of corrupt souls which will only bring more torment to your life. I think this is how these corrupt ass people have the energy to do all this devil's work but still at the end of the day are miserable. Likewise, I think this is how factory workers can work all day, everyday until they retire and be happy with the nothing that they've saved for retirement because they kept positive energy in them.
Whoever this teller is, this Almighty, He hears the prayers and sees the intent behind them. If someone is praying for strength and endurance to keep doing positive work, He'll send it. That's why most religions are supposed to tell you not to pray for material things and be focused on such worldly things, I digress. He is aware, and He has the power to distribute this energy, since it can't be destroyed (by the laws of the universe). And maybe this Almighty has a evil counterpart which deals out the negative energy, but whatever I'm sticking to this belief.
With this being said, I don't believe death is the end. And while I may not believe in the version of eternal life that everyone else might, I know the positive things that I strive to do on a daily basis will allow me to continue to grow into a successful person with the brain of a scholar, because that's what I'm putting into the universe.
On that note, I come to my final conclusion. Oeshae Morgan you were an amazing person during your time on this planet. The things you did, the people you affected, the life you lived were all just proof of the amazing energy you had. So while we have all grieved countless hours about what happened this summer, know that I believe that your spirit is still in this universe making someone better who will go on to change the world someday to the extent that you would have. I never said goodbye to you because I know someday our spirits will meet again to help the same person who needs that positive energy. I love you Mama Shae. May your spirit live on.
Everyone who is seriously interested in the pursuit of science becomes convinced that a spirit is manifest in the laws of the universe – a spirit vastly superior to man, and one in the face of which our modest powers must seem humble.
-Anonymous (believed to be Albert Einstein)
So, seeing how I am still by the grace of the Almighty in the engineering school where I am, I have learned many theories, laws, and things of that nature that are "known" to be factual. The one that always bothered me the most is the physics law, the Law of the Conservation of Energy.
For those who don't know what it is, or cannot use the clues from the direct words of the law, it's basically that energy can neither be created nor destroyed. Seems simple right? But if you know about physics, you know a couple theoretical physicist have stretched this law to it's limit, as well, by questioning it. One guy named Albert Einstein did some crazy stuff with it, maybe you've heard of him... -Side note the theory of relativity is absolutely wild, and so is quantum theory; can't even begin to fathom stuff like that.
Back to the point, this theory always led me to have an infinite amount of questions.
**One more side note which is important to this post. I had a dear friend pass away this summer, and that is what really forced me to think about death seriously. She was just about to turn 21, had the world at her feet, and had the energy of 1,000 suns. Indirectly this post is a dedication to her, but you'll see how that happens at the end.**
I've always had a problem when thinking about death. As you can tell, my logic is twisted at times and from listening to what people tell you about afterlife there's no logical way anyone can comprehend just not existing. From what most people will tell you, if you don't die a horrific death and become a ghost/demon, you go to Happy Heaven or burn in hell. I've always had many questions about this concept, but I'll tackle that bully in a post later, for now let's just get back on topic.
So as I questioned this "not existing in the universe" fear, I thought about many things. For one, I watched the movie Immortals and had some crazy thoughts about a war in the after life. I also thought about many things which religious people will tell you. You know, your spirit going through the great gates of heaven into a party in paradise where we praise all day and feast with the great (enter a single religious belief group here) that have passed. [I completely disagree that only one group of religion gets into heaven as well but once again, that'll be in a later post] Ultimately, I found the first more appealing, but only through my logic.
I am a firm believer in the ways of the universe. If you are not, you might want to stop reading now. I only believe in the ways of the universe by applying this law of conservation of energy to everything. If you perform an action, you exert energy right? Even further, when you perform an action you have to think about the positives and negatives of that action. It's what people do, it's called having a conscience. If you do not have a conscience, you need more than religion to help you.
Back to the point, kind of not, but every thought, every voluntary action, every involuntary action that your body makes goes through the brain. If you don't know how the brain works -technically nobody does because it's the single most amazing thing ever, digress- you know you have roughly over 100 billion nerve cells called neurons which send some type of electrochemical impulses through your body. Now as stated in every post, I am not a neuroscientist and am no professional on the matter, but I'm pretty sure these electrical impulses amount to a shit load of energy.
No matter who you are, how "smart", how aware, whatever you think your status is, everyone's brain works the same. Some people have better sections of their brain than others, but at the end of the day they all work through these impulses. Every one has thoughts, can move their limbs for the most part, and things of the sort which require brain power.
Seeing how there's roughly 7 Billion people in the world, which increases quickly, I'm pretty sure it's safe to say that the energy only used to keep people alive is a significant amount.
Here's where my logic lead me.
If I think as much as I do, my brain must be throwing these electrochemical impulses out at some type of advanced rate right? But, see, the act of dying causes your brain to turn into a shut down factory. So where does the energy go? When I die, according to this "Law of the Universe" my thoughts are somewhere, because the energy that generates these thoughts can't just be destroyed. Even further, these thoughts, these energy impulses which lead me to think the way I do, have to be coming from somewhere, right? Who am I to create energy and go against this "Law of the Universe"?
So, this is what I came to believe after failing exams because of thinking so much about this and not sleeping for the better part of the months following my friend's funeral. When people die, it's not the end. That spirit that lives within you, that energy that you have -since it cannot be destroyed- it keeps going. And as a person, you receive the energy that you put into the universe.
I like to think of it as a big ass Karma bank, right? But there's some Almighty Power which is the teller and He's dealing energy with interest rates. So if you're working hard, exerting energy, on positive things then that energy of the people that have passed can be given to you. If you're spending your time exerting negative energy, well you get the hand you're dealt. You might receive some energy, but it'll be the energy of corrupt souls which will only bring more torment to your life. I think this is how these corrupt ass people have the energy to do all this devil's work but still at the end of the day are miserable. Likewise, I think this is how factory workers can work all day, everyday until they retire and be happy with the nothing that they've saved for retirement because they kept positive energy in them.
Whoever this teller is, this Almighty, He hears the prayers and sees the intent behind them. If someone is praying for strength and endurance to keep doing positive work, He'll send it. That's why most religions are supposed to tell you not to pray for material things and be focused on such worldly things, I digress. He is aware, and He has the power to distribute this energy, since it can't be destroyed (by the laws of the universe). And maybe this Almighty has a evil counterpart which deals out the negative energy, but whatever I'm sticking to this belief.
With this being said, I don't believe death is the end. And while I may not believe in the version of eternal life that everyone else might, I know the positive things that I strive to do on a daily basis will allow me to continue to grow into a successful person with the brain of a scholar, because that's what I'm putting into the universe.
On that note, I come to my final conclusion. Oeshae Morgan you were an amazing person during your time on this planet. The things you did, the people you affected, the life you lived were all just proof of the amazing energy you had. So while we have all grieved countless hours about what happened this summer, know that I believe that your spirit is still in this universe making someone better who will go on to change the world someday to the extent that you would have. I never said goodbye to you because I know someday our spirits will meet again to help the same person who needs that positive energy. I love you Mama Shae. May your spirit live on.
This post is dedicated to Oeshae Sierra Morgan
July 14, 1992-July 12,2013
Gone but never forgotten.
Everyone who is seriously interested in the pursuit of science becomes convinced that a spirit is manifest in the laws of the universe – a spirit vastly superior to man, and one in the face of which our modest powers must seem humble.
-Anonymous (believed to be Albert Einstein)
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